Easter

A few weeks ago I was at Costco having lunch with Ava and I noticed an older couple coming out of the store. The man was not walking well and she had to help him over to a bench while she went and got the car. I don't know why they caught my eye but I watched the man as he sat and waited. He had such a look of sadness in his eyes and I thought about how his dignity had been stripped away. He wasn't able to help his wife get the car or load the groceries. He had to watch her push the heavy cart to the car and put the giant bags away. He had to wait for her to come back just so she could help him shuffle his way to the passenger seat. The whole scenario made me so sad that I started crying in the food court and tried to brush away the tears before Ava saw me. Sometimes I feel so lost in this world and I don't want to be here. The desire for redemption literally makes my heart ache. This season our church has been going through Isaiah and the servant songs about Jesus. One thing that has challenged me was the idea that we should experience joy in the hope of redemption. I can't even really imagine how that would look. That I would see all the pain and devastation in this world and be at peace with it because one day God will make it right. I guess I've always had hope in that perfect future but never really felt like it made the sin in the world ok. Maybe that's what redemption is, finding out that there was a reason and a purpose for even the most horrible circumstance. My prayer this Easter is that I will not only be thankful for what Jesus did a long time ago but for the joy in knowing that one day we will see the whole picture of what He's done and all of it will be beautiful.